I'm not sure how much longer I can sit in this office with the negativity that flows around me. I've still not reached desperate, but I think I'm getting closer. I've been here for three years now and have been trying off and on to get out ever since. I don't have particularly high intentions for myself-I just want to make enough money to pay the bills. If I could do that working part time then I certainly would. I'd like to be able to spend more time at home with my son. It's really aggravating to want one thing but have to do another.

Oh, and the negativity begins again. It's not her fault. It's always everyone elses fault. Can't take the blame for anything.

Got to get outta here.